This is a call out post to myself to read the books I already own.
I thought if I saw the amount of books I have that I wanted to read by now in black and white that it would finally light a fire under me to actually read them.
I’ve tried in the past couple of months to set a monthly tbr even though I know I’m a mood reader not a structured one. I just really wanted to get this under control.
But with all my lists and plans nothing changed
I don’t know how it got so out of hand (yes, I do) I stockpile books like wood for winter. You never know when you’ll run out of books to read.
It could happen.
Before this year I kept a good pace of reading the books I got.
It was manageable for so long because mentally I’ve been healthy and I kept a consistent schedule and well this year… yeah.
I know this is the furthest thing from being a real problem it’s just a frustrating time for me and instead of adopting healthy coping mechanisms I’m writing this.
I think the hardest part to accept is how much I use to read and how much I can realistically read now. Realigning my mindset and my objectives is something I’ve been working on.
‘Cause honestly the only one making me feel guilty or overwhelmed is, me. No one cares if I read one or none, if I write a review or not.
I know a lot of people also struggle with similar guilt. We put a ridiculous amount of stress on ourselves unnecessarily.
My new mantra, “You will read all those books one day when you’re meant to.”
Eventually, I’ll believe this, I hope.
A disclaimer what I consider for myself to be a lot may not equal to what you consider for yourself. Niether of us is wrong.
That’s enough rambling on to the main event
This one kills me every second it sits there. Bought this at the start of the year and I thought I would get to it right away. That was the goal but HAAHAHHa jokes on ME. Especially when people finish it and gush about how it killed them. That could be me but noooooope.
The Sword of Kaigen by M.L. Wang
This was put on my radar thanks to Twitter, earlier this year. I found it for cheap and got it and it’s been waiting ever since to be read. This is a monster size book and it sounds fantastic. This is Standalone Adult High Fantasy Japanese-inspired military story that takes place in the same world as another of his series. I’ll either die reading this or die waiting to read this.
Shorefall by Robert Jackson Bennett
A sequel to Foundryside. I read the first book in February and absolutely loved it so I was ecstatic to get my hands on the sequel, that came out in March or April at this point every month runs together, and yes, you guessed it has sat untouched. LOL I love this for me.
The Tea Master and the Detective by Aliette de Bodard
Another Twitter made me buy it and now it just mocks me. It’s a science fiction novella about solving a mystery with a sentient warship. I need a detective to solve the case of my unread books.
Artificial Condition; Rogue Protocol; and Exit Strategy by Martha Wells
I adore the hell out of the Murderbot Diaries. I picked them up only last year but could not wait to know the rest. Apparently, I can wait. This has an Artificial Intelligence having an identity crisis while denying having caught feelings = wonderful. I’m avoiding these like Murderbot avoids their feelings.
The Thief series by Megan Whalen Tuner
Everyone I trust has raved about this series. I love fantasy and I like an ensemble cast of characters. This is an older series that I wanted to try. What’s another decade to wait to read it??
The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale
This was a case of these were a lot of friends faves when they were younger and honestly I just love the sound of these fairytale retellings. I didn’t know anything about the Goose Girl before discovering this book. I mean I still don’t know much having not picked up this book -_-
Sabriel by Garth Nix
This came highly recommend and for all them it seemed like a steal. I have read the first book so I score one point which brings up my score to -99. I did enjoy it though. I like the death magic.
I got a Scooby-Doo comic book set because it’s Scooby-Doo. Funny story I had the theme song stuck in my head the day I found this. I hadn’t watched or heard it in years so coincidental or nah? I took it as a sign but still they go unread.
The Last Namsara by Kristen Ciccarelli
DRAGONS, need I say more? Let the Dragons eat me if I don’t read this soon.
At this point I know you’re like stop getting books but I wasn’t actively looking which was easy thanks to a pandemic. Not being able to go to the store really cuts into accidental book purchases. (Notice I said cut into not cut out)
That’s how I came into possession of the next few books. Books were discounted and/ or easier to access. Why did it take a pandemic to make this happen??
Fairest of All: A Tale of the Evil Queen by Serena Valentino
I have had my eye on this series since I saw Maleficent on one of the sequel covers. Being that she is my favorite I took it upon myself to get a hold of this series. I was a bit disappointed that they aren’t exactly standalones. Someday my dream will come true and I will read this. Or this will become my villain origin story.
The Calculating Stars by Mary Robinette Kowal
This gives me Life as We Knew It vibes but historically set in the fifties with empowering women in the forefront. I don’t know much more and I think I want to keep it that way, hence why it’s still to be read. I do look forward to the day this gets read. Whenever that is.
A Spark of White Fire by Sangu Mandanna
Another science fiction, I’m sensing a trend. This is a space opera inspired by the Mahabharata and other ancient Indian stories. It sounds incredible so future me is really lucky when they finally pick this up. I’m jealous.
These are just the ones I feel the worst about.
Don’t get me started on the books I covet at the Library.
Like I said earlier this isn’t an important issue in this moment. I just needed to lightheartedly roast myself over the plethora of books that I really want to read but can’t/don’t.
Instead of writing this I’m 100% aware I could have read at least one thing on this list -.-
The moral of the story: Read or don’t read just buy the book anyway